tinkin back... i had a choice not to let him go... but y did i allow him to??? i tink i might jus b startin to regret wat i did... i shd have took tinks on my own hands.. y did i let my frens took control of it... perhaps he is realli gettin busier in sch and dun have time for mi... and cuz i need alot of attention tats y he ask mi to tink abt our relationship again... sudenly i feel so empty inside... do i miss him or do i jus miss the feelin of bein loved....the last time he was the wan tat left mi behind... but i tink tis time i was the wan hu make him leave mi... i tink tis time i hurted him too deep... too dep tat it wun return to the way it was b4...i realli wish tat time would return to the time when we 1st met where both of us r super innocent...but i have a feelin tat the last part of our relationship i dun feel love from him at all... he might b tryin to make mi feel tat he was tryin to do wat a bf shd do.. but i dun feel the love in it... its like fallin for a zombie... i tink i'm jus too selfish... i shdn't b fit to love anyone... i am startin to hate myself for all i did... or maybe its smt else...

ryan told mi ytd tat he saw him cut his hair... wtf la... been tryin to ask him to cut for months but he sae he like his hair... den break le he go cut.... go to hell la... so wat i said dun mean anytink to him at all la... fine la... but i realli cannot forget him... help!!!!