i got sick tdy...
so i went home earli...
tue is suppose to b a rottin dae in sch as usual...

i did rot...
till 5 plus wif the rest...
den i left if my "hands" zhien yi... and thomas...
accompanied zhien yi to buy her finalli remembered ear piece...
and she asked for carrier cuz i needed it...
jus in case i vomit...
she didn't forget abt thomas....
she gave thomas the receipt...
LOL!!!

den on the way out...
i saw 0903...
so i told them...
if i see wei wen...
den i got ppl to pei go back...
den i take train home...
and i could save money from cab!!!^^

so as i was walkin out...
i sms wei wen...
but she nv reply...
so i called her....
and the moment i call i see her in front of mi!!!
but we still continue talkin on fone!!!
LOL!!!

they train to toa payoh...
while i stop at newton...
den bus home...
reached home ard...6 plus...

not long aft daddy came back...
den as i told zyong...
i went to slp...
cuz they ask mi to rest>.<
den at ard 7...
daddy come in and ask mi pei him go ah ma hse...
den i tell him i sick...
plus i need to study ltr...
den guess wat he told mi...
**U CAN ALWAYS STUDY AFT WE COME BACK!!!**
**EVERYTIME ASK U FOR A SMALL FAVOR DAMN HARD!!!**
**FORGET IT!!! NEXT TIME U ASK MI DO TINKS I ALSO SAE I DUN WAN**

those words realli stabbed mi hard...
at tat moment...
the 1st thot tat actualli came to my blur mind was...
*i sick leh... yet all u can tink of is ask mi go ah ma hse help!!!*
but when i woke up...
i regreted...
i was tinkin...
*daddy has to work... den he aft work come home rest awhile den go ah ma hse help le...*
*and he has been doin tat for very long le... yet he has no one to complain...*
plus at daddy sae when he come back realli hit mi damn damn hard...
he sae ah ma sick le...
yet no ppl care...
all the uncles and aunties...
sae wan to help aft my ma take over the shop...
BUT WHERE ARE THEY!!!???
all empty promises!!!

daddy actualli sae he dun wan care about mi le...
and currently as i am writin tis post....
im actualli cryin...
for those hu noe mi...
shd noe tat i rarely cry aft i got into poly...

but i have always been damn sensitive to wat my daddy sae...
my daddy jus have to shout at mi once...
i can become a waterfall le...

daddy sae he wans to bring ah ma to see doc tml....
den since i need to get my hand fixed....
he ask mi to join them tml...
but now tat he tell mi he dun wan care abt mi le....
does it still meant it???
guess my hand will not b fixed so fast...
haix...

i dun dare to tell daddy abt how sorry i am...
but i realli wanna tell him tat i'm sorri...
how can i be so selfish and not bother abt how u feel...

DADDY!!!
SORRY!!!

i'll try to help when possible k???